So part of my new job at ECC is to create the video segments we use each week for various ministries and sometimes, such as the case this week, to create training videos for our pastoral cluster meetings. I have spent the past two weeks married to my computer editing videos. I have a total of 45 hours of editing in three 25 minutes videos. I was thrilled today when I started to export these creations of mine to the DVD burner. This meant that I was soon to be done and would be able to get back to life like I once new it.
Came time to burn the last video and all went well. I stuck it in the player for a quick preview and to my surprise there was a HUGE red X through the whole screen. It never went away, the entire video is like this.
Now just so you know, this particular video is my most time consuming one, it has the most filters, changes, edits and cuts......so imagine how excited I was when I realized I had to spend yet more time and fix it.
I get into the edit program and the red X is there as well, IT WONT GO AWAY. Nothing I did would take this red X off my project so I could finalize it. Frustrated and disappointed do not explain what I felt. I did everything I knew how to do to fix it, finally to submit and realize I will have to re-create it tomorrow. Yet another day on this project.
OK so really I have a point, I'm not just complaining.
As I was trying to read tonight for school about sin and sanctification, I began to see some similarities to what I am dealing with and reading. I have a lot of time invested in this video, and this stupid red X is in my way and renders the video useless and unworthy of being used for it's intended purpose, so I am going to have to rebuild it. (seeing any similarities yet?)
It hit me tonight that this is so much like the sin in our lives. No matter how much I moved the video around that red X followed it, like my sin follows me. There is nothing I can do to remove this red X from my video, much like there is nothing I can do to remove my own sin. Tomorrow as I head into my office to recreate this video from the ground up, I will go in with a little different perspective, understanding that I bare a MASSIVE RED X on my heart. God is re-building me from the ground up in order to render me useful for my intended purpose.
Tomorrow won't be frustrating, it will be a gentle reminder of the X I bare, and the work Christ is doing in my life.
